I realized how dependent I am on Water Polo.

It's my all around cure and I absolutely love it.

If I'm mad, I just play roughly during practice or I can take it out during Water Polo workouts. I'm mad-excited to do Club Water Polo at the College thingy.

But I'm so dependent on it. After all, it's the temporary magic cure for absolutely all of my problems. If I can't draw, then I use Water Polo as my exertion to throw my anger out at the world. Mikal is like my number one role model as far as sports goes. I'm always trying to make him happy with my performance and it makes me happy to know that my doing better makes it easier on him, but Water Polo is going to consume me. What will I do afterwards? I mean, Water Polo is my outsource for everything negative. I forget about everything when I'm playing because it just doesn't matter to me.

Lately, things have been going quite bad for me I suppose. Example:

Anthony's brother came back and he seems happier to be around his brother, which is normal right? But he's acting so much more differently towards me. Saying awkward things, and being just downright mean. He seems exhausted of me I suppose. We've ran out of things to say but there's more that I want to know about him. I know it's not his fault because if he wanted to break up with me he would have, but still. I don't know what to think really.

Things are getting awkward with my friends. I've barely talked to Sammy, and I want to go see her soon, but it's difficult with Jr. Guards.

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There's so much I want to do with Anthony but it seems that I have to go into his world a little bit more. I don't know how to do that and still be myself and I don't want to change for his sake, honestly, that's just stupid. But, I've been exposed to so much now because of him that I want to learn more and yet I'm afraid when he says, "I want to go to such and such college in this state", but I want to stay in California for college and study a broad for a year. I'm afraid he'll move on, but isn't that my lack of faith talking?

What the hell is wrong with me? How did I change? Am I scared for no reason? :/ I don't know what to think or do without Water Polo or Swim or Art anymore.

It's kind of consuming my life and I can't just like sit back and enjoy myself anymore. I'm always too busy worrying about something. Even music is "[/epicfail]"ing me now. I can't an outsource to all of my bent up "everythings" and it seems that everytime I try to enjoy myself it come to a halt because of something. I want a hug. =/ But I don't know from who. But I want one.

What should I do? What have I done to become so messed up right now?

I've bee noticing my lack of work lately and it's pissing me off. So, I've been doodling on and off and I plan on updating my Deviation numbers very soon, so stay tuned. Stuff will be updated tomorrow for sure. I don't guarntee that a lot of it will be in Deviations but there will be some updates.

And, yes, as the title implies updates. I'm willing to do free art commissions to get my creative juices flowing.

(Which reminds me, there's a perfume coming out called Virgin Juice... Laugh, anyone?)

So, send me a note, or drop me a line, and ask for something for me to draw, yeah? =3

~Val

1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions
3. Then tag three people.

Characters Chosen:
Fenrir, Lucifer, Eris, Kali, Rose

1) How Old Are You?

Major: 23.
Knyght: Uhh...19. I think. I kind of forgot my birthday.
Lily: I'm 9!!
Rook: Yeaaah. No comment.
Lily: Lighten up, brother.

2) Height?

Rook: Lily's short. Like dwarf short!
Lily: Heey! I am not! I'm 4"7!
Major: Taller than Rook.
Rook: Kiss my ass.
Knyght: Taller than Rook.
Rook: I'm gonna kill you one day.

3) You Got Any Bad Habits?

Rook: Sex. Abandoning my sister, and selling King to teenagers and children.
Major: Cuddling Lily. Falling asleep with the T.V. on and running off.
Knyght: King, and trying to kill people.
Lily: Trying to be closer to my brother.

4) You a virgin?

Major: I haven't been since my Freshman year in Highschool.
Rook: You got laid after I did, actually, Major.
Major: *glares at* This isn't a contest, idiot!
Lily: *stares blankly*
Knyght: Nope.
Lily: Huh?
Rook: Ahahaha!
Major: Fucking idiot...

5) Who's your Mate/Spouse?

All of 'em: *looks about*
Major: I had a lovely girlfriend, Hailyn, but she took off...

6) Have Any Kids?

Major: No, but I want some.
Rook: I have a sister to look after, that's far enough for me.
Lily: I have my brother and I can't even keep track of him! I'm 7!!!
Knyght: I have enough Pawns to look over. I don't need little 3 year olds getting into my exports.

7) Favorite Food?

Major: Eating is a chore, really.
Rook: I like spaghetti, crab sushi, and anything sweet.
Lily: Sugary-goodness in my veins!! *grins widely*
Knyght: I'd have to say King.
Major: That's not a food. It's a drug.
Knyght: Doesn't mean I don't eat it!
Rook: I thought humans couldn't consume King...
Major: Same.
Lily: *cocks head* Quel?

8) Favorite Ice Cream flavor?

Lily: All sorts of ice creams!!
Rook: Look what you've done! Look what you've done!
Lily: *bouncing around in the background screaming about ice cream*
Major: Rocky Road.
Knyght: King-flavored.
Major:..seriously. Can we consume that?

9) Killed anyone?

Major: Umm, I had to kill my dad. It was either my dad or Lily. And I can't let a little girl die.
Rook: *looks off, holding Lily*
Knyght: With King? More than you know.

10) Hate anyone?

Major: Knyght.
Rook: Yup, Knyght.
Lily: *raises hand* Knyght!
Knyght: You three.

11) Any Secrets?

Major: I'm secretly in love with my best friend's sister, though I'm nearly 4 times her age.
Rook: I'm a sex addict to compensate for the lack of affection my parents ever gave either of Lily and I.
Lily:...
Knyght: My wife left me and from her remains I created King.

12) Love Anyone?

Major: My long-lost Hailyn, and my future love.
Rook: My littler sister Lily.
Lily: My brother and Major!!
Knyght: I hate everyone.
Major: You're grouchy.
Knyght: And you're a prick!

13) TACOS?

Major: J'adore les tacos.
Rook: *nods*
Lily: Bell?
Knyght: King?.

15) Favorite Show?

Major: The white noise.
Lily: Caaartooooooooooons!
Rook: Too busy to watch TV.
Knyght....

16) Favorite Movie?

All of 'em: Major blew up the theatre.
Major: Hey! Hey!!!! NOT MY FAULT!

17) Favorite Band?

All of 'em: None. The state provides us with shitty music.
Lily: Well, I listen to Rocket.
Major: *cringe* Aren't you cute? *pets*

18) Eye Color?

Major: Olive Green.
Lily: Blue.
Rook: Blue.
Knyght: Not Blue.
Major: ?_?

19) Skin Color?

Major: We're all pretty fair skinned except for Lily, who is quite dark.

20) Fat/Average/Slim?

Major: Skinny.
Rook: Twiggy.
Lily: Huh? *pokes tummy*
Knyght: Anorexic./

21) Rain, Sunshine?

Lily: The Sun!
Major: Yeah, the sun.
Rook: Boo! It's all about the R-A-I-N, yo!
Knyght: Stfu now!

23) Camping, staying home?

Rook: We've never been outside of the gates of Queen's New Island.

24) Dog, Cat?

Lily: Boths!
Major: Both.
Rook: Meh.
Knyght: Grrr!
Major: There is something wrong with you.

25) Aliens?

Knyght: X FILES!

26) Natural Born, or Clone?

Major: Natural.
Rook: Sex!
Lily: Natural?
Major: Exactly.

27) Car or Ship?

Major: The Bus.
Rook: We don't HAVE you're fancy "cars"!


28) Ever destroyed something out of Blind Rage?

Major: *looks away*
Lily: An ant once.
Knyght: I do it all the time
Rook:...

29) Any Unusual Things about you?

Major: Rook and I sold drugs to teenagers in order to get money to leave Queen's New Island, but we got caught up in the drugs themselves. Now he and I are abnormally skinny and it's difficult to gain that weight and muscle back.
Rook: I'm covered in Tattoos.
Lily: I have plugs!
Knyght: I'm not circumsized...

31) Favorite Place?

Knyght: My King Lab.
Lily: With my brother!
Major: With Lily.
Rook: With hookers.

Thanks Britt!

Art Quiz

What is the character you've drawn the most? (Can be original or fanart)
Kiana, Sheena and myself as the 'Fairies' or Major.

What colour do you often use?
The colors a pencil creates.

Any colour you are bad at using?
...Probably having to come up with flesh colors.

When drawing people, where do you start?
The eyes followed by the shape of the head then hairline.

What is a character only your eraser will love?
All of them..

Which of your works took the longest time?
My latest Deviation. For all the Valentine's Day Loners. I love you all!

What techniques do you use when you want to improve in drawing?
Different shading techniques, and looking at Manga books to come up with an original idea.

What art tools/media are you good with?
Pen, paper, and pencil, baby. As well as scanner and white out!! D: A PERSONAL FAVE!

Art tools/media you are bad at?
Eh, I guess Photoshop!

What do you think about your own art?
I think it needs improvement but I like my style. It has it's own recognizable features.

Do you consult magazines for your drawings?
Nope, never. I will consult Manga.

What do you like about your art?
The fact I'm always improving.

What habits do you have while drawing?
Continuously looking over the picture and fix shit.

Are you good at drawing faces facing right?
Eh. Not really. I can be.

How frequently do you draw?
More than I should, I'm sure.

What do you do when you have artist's block?
Listen to music non-stop or consult friends. Sometimes I'll pout.

What must you have when you draw?
Music, pen, pencils, colored pencils, markers, rulers, a scanner, white out, Photoshop, a computer, and all my manga.

Do you have a lot of stray lines (messy lineart)?
Yes, sometimes.

What is drawing to you?
Yes.

Your goal from now on?
Try and start drawing my own more original style. The tall lanky kind.

Artists you've had influence from?
More than you know.

Artists you like?
J'adore Da Vinci! D: And the guy who did the cover for Finch's Album, "Say Hello To Sunshine"


Which is easier to draw, humans or animals?
Anthromorphic, or just humans.

Please tell us the title(s) of your own comic(s)
I don't have any personal long going comics.

Show us an old picture.
Look 'em up. =3

What is the first thing you would draw if we're talking about fantasy?
Angels and Demons. (No pun intended you Dan Brown Readers!)

Please draw your most beloved character
They're already up.

When thinking of characters is it mostly female? male?
Female. But it depends.

What did you draw yesterday?
I drew the start of my newest Deviation and completed it today.

What is the funnest part to draw?
For me? Hands, Feet, shoes, genitals. I've attempted, and guys are hard. D:

What part of other people's drawings do you notice first?
They eyes and/or how shiny it is, or how original the picture or coloring is.

Regarding backgrounds, what is your method of making it easier to draw?
I normally don't care.

What colour coordinations do you like?
Red, black, white, green, and blue. Mostly green right now though.

What character did you last draw?
Kiana, and I.

Does your style change easily?
Eh. *shrugs* I'm trying to stop that.

What part of drawing do you pay most attention to?
The eyes and hair, fuck everything else!

How do you feel about drawing H pictures?
....Oh hentai? I can't pull it off, but I've tried, and I will again later.

Do you like criticism from others?
Constructive.

How many people do you normally draw per artwork?
1 or 2. Sometimes, but rarely, more.

When you were a kid did you think of become illustrator/comic artist/etc?
Hells no. I wanted to be a marine biologist.

Ever got your artwork(s) stolen? If so, tell me your experience, how did you handle it?
Not that I know. I give unfinished work out to Kiana if she wants it.

What do you least enjoy drawing?
THE HANDS AND FOLDS IN CLOTHES. Sometimes breasts too.

Have you ever thought of giving up drawing?
....HA HA HA! You're damn funny!! ;D

Have you ever been praised/admired for your drawing?
Yes, a few times. But I wish they praise it more! X3 That's okies though.


Edit: There's one thing I've always wanted to do. To draw a pic or do a flash animation of me listening to a Slipknot or Disturbed Song, while tapping or strumming my fingers like I'm on a keyboard or guitar!! Xd While my other hand is like clinging to my headphone. The BIG BULKY DJ KIND TOO !

I found out what I'm doing and when.

Last week of Janvier will be le examens. Leading up to that I'll be reading "Oedipus Rex", and doing a notebook on that for english.

Biology won't be too bad. I'll have to do a paper on a genetic malfunction created during cross-over.

Math...I have a fucking notebook due. FUCK!! C'est ZERO!!!

Francias...tests. Loads of 'em. C'est barbant...

L'histoire, examens! YAY!!!!!!!...et Powerpoint Project. Woot? C'est nul et zero. ACK!

Arts, my semester final has been in the works for about 8 or so hours now. I'm drawing a Serval, then inking in with India Ink...fun, huh?

And water polo...same as before. Oi, ya! D:

I ache all over...I'm so stressed out because of family issues it's not even funny, let alone fun. Good god this'll affect me all week.

~Val...